How To Spark Your Zeal When You Feel Resentment
Have you ever been so mad at someone that the anger lasted more than a day? Truth to be told, this happened to me. Once, it lasted 20 years. And since last Sunday was Father’s Day, it feels like the right day for this story to be heard.
Allow me to share more.
As a teenager, I lived in a constant state of frustration—angry, disappointed, and quick to explode. Upsetness ran deep in my bones. I would scream, yell, and lock myself in my room, blasting Metallica, Annihilator, and every heavy riff that matched my rage.
When I was 18, right before leaving for college, my hot temperament took over, and sadly, something really painful happened.
I decided to cut my father out of my life. Completely.
At the time, I told myself I was protecting my heart. That isolating myself from him was the only way to shield myself from pain. And for 20 long years, I believed it. Unfortunately, what I didn’t realize back then was that the weight of resentment wasn’t shielding me—it was chaining me.
I thought I wanted distance.
But what I was really craving was love.
For years, every thought of my dad stirred a storm inside me—rage, sadness, loss. You name it. The darkness tightened, holding my thoughts gripping on me.
I even remember my mother, sick in bed, pleading:
"Please talk to your father. He loves you."
And in my stubbornness, I would reply:
"I can’t."
It took me 20 years—and the pain of giving birth twice—to finally understand.
To heal. To embrace the greatest power of all:✨ Forgiveness.
Five years ago, I woke up with a truth I could no longer ignore:
🔥 I was the one keeping myself stuck in loneliness.
Resentment wasn’t protecting me.
☠️ It was poisoning me.
💡 It was dimming my light.
❤️🩹 It was blocking my ability to fully receive love.
So, I surrendered. I did what I hadn’t had the courage to do for 20 long years.
I let go. Embracing peace, forgiveness, joy and LOVE.
Forgiveness cracked me open and liberated my spirit.
And something unexpected happened.
The moment I forgave, my entire life shifted.
My heart softened. 💗
My breath unlocked. 😌
Opportunities flowed effortlessly. 🌊
Because when you release what’s been weighing you down, you create space for miracles. And here’s what I know to be true—spiritually, emotionally, and scientifically about Forgiveness
It frees the mind. 🧘♀️
It unlocks abundance. 💰
It is a portal to peace. ☮️
I finally understood that Forgiveness is a practice, a devotion, and a daily surrender. It's what sets you free. It's the portal to endless love.
So today, I ask you: What pain are you still carrying? What would happen if you let just a little of it go? Perhaps you're not yet ready to forgive fully. Maybe the wound still feels too raw. And that’s okay.
Just consider this: What if the freedom you seek isn’t outside of you but within you—waiting for you to choose it? What if forgiveness is the biggest and most radical act of self-love?
Forgiveness isn’t about forgetting—it’s about freeing yourself and releasing the weight that’s been keeping you stuck so that you can create space for miracles to come your way.
If you're looking for the Zeal and the courage to forgive, the Zeal Letter can provide that help. Through a powerful practice to unburden your heart, it will clear stagnant energy and open the door to more peace, love, and abundance.
Today, choose to let go and invite in something new. You deserve it.
And if this day stirs something in your heart—whether it's grief, love, anger, or longing—know that you’re not alone. May this past Father’s Day be a gentle reminder that healing is always possible.
PROMPT OF THE WEEK
Use it with your favorite AI companion to help you Spark Your Zeal a little deeper. It’s a heart-led practice to help you gain clarity, insights, or inspiration. Below is this week’s prompt to explore:
Can you guide me through a gentle reflection to explore how my relationship with my father—or father figure—has shaped me, and where I might be ready to invite in forgiveness, healing, or understanding?
WHY THIS IS POTENT
Whether your father is present, absent, or unknown, this prompt invites you to explore how that relationship—or the longing for it—has shaped you. Fathers often hold powerful emotional weight in our stories, and that weight can carry love, pain, confusion, or longing. This isn’t about rewriting the past but about meeting your own heart with compassion—so you can begin to release what no longer serves you and make space for healing, softness, and inner peace.
